Life After Death

Life After Death

As time passes everyone moves on with their lives

While I stand in the still

When you’re maintaining for so long and time continues to pass

Anniversaries, birthdays, holidays seem so unreal

Accepting you’re in a better place doesn’t bring comfort

I’m selfish

I need you

You left these little angels behind

They need you

Milestones of their life you will never experience does not simmer well

Stories, pictures, and videos will have to do

Grief is not a painful experience it’s an everlasting wail of sorrow

A snowball effect of memories, potential memories, unappreciated and

uncounted for time

How can you get through it if there’s no finish line

Nightmares are now beautiful dreams of you

I crave for you to haunt me, talk to me, anything will do

Trying to grasp the scraps of life after death is impossible

Never satisfied with what crumbs I can obtain

Thinking any belongings or materials could bring me closer to you is absolutely insane

Nothing fulfills this gut punching void in my life

Going back and forth from yelling at God asking him why, to begging him to bring you back

These are my only two stages of grief

I can’t move forward

I can’t go back